yet another victim

I have always thought that I would be someone that I'd be proud of,
Never letting what someone say to me get the best of me,
Verbal abuse is always the worse kind,
Even when the perpetrator is the one saying,
"Don't let what I say go to your heart...
you have to be strong...
you can't be so sensitive"

What am I supposed to say to that?
How am I supposed to react to that?
When all my life I have been
physically abused,
mentally abused,
verbally abused,
and sexually abused.
What more agony am I to endure?
How much stronger can I get?
From all the abuse I have been through already.

I have always thought that I would be someone that could say,
No I have not been abused,
but I cannot,
I have experienced them all...
tears comforted me when I knew no one would,
the wind became my blanket,
the sand became my foundation,
the ocean became my friend,
so that nature can help heal what man had destroyed,
because the agony of my heart could not conflate with the
agony of my mind,
for I am torn inside,
But life must go on,
As I continue to live my life as a victim.